I know where I stand. I know who I am. I would never run away when life gets bad. Everything I see - every part of me is going to get what I deserve.

Im thinking how to start, what to say. should i sing a song or write a poem? huh. i dont think none of these would matter right now. I dnt know how i feel any more. My boyfriend... oh my boyfriend... sometimes i think he's perfect, but the next day i see... he's just like other people - not perfect. There's no person in this world that is perfect. Everyone has something that is wrong with them. I dont know where to start, but my boyfriend he thinks he is a superman. he thinks he's undefided. Well... to say in a easy way and not to hurt anyone, I would just say - You are not perfect and you wont be. Its not even about being perfect, but the way he thinks. Oh Gosh. he thinks that every guy that talks to me wants to fuck. Hello? This isnt some 15th century or w.e. ya'll call, but people think about gettting friends, gettin new connections, meetin new cultures not about fuckin others.. grrr.. when i hear him sayin this.. God Bless Him, but he is so Goddammn worng on this one. And you know what i hate the most about him, the way he fix everything, Whenever something happens its never his fault. Usually he blames on me. Well its easy to do it when Im aound. huh? Today he blamed me for a fuckin traffic on the street. and then he asked me why i didnt check online if there was a traffic. I mean WHO the fuck thinks about checkin if there is or if there is not a traffic on the way to brooklyn. I mean you have to be in a hurry or smoething to even think about checkin that shit online. That was jus sick and i think i have all the rights to say that he was wrong on blaming that shit on me. grrrr... let's face it - he is this kind of person that no matter what it HAS TO BE ALL ABOut him. I MAY B cryin, i may feel dead and he will come with the lamest problem to make everything all about him. I dont know if he aint getttin much attention from his parents and thats why no matter what everything gotta b about him at the end of the day or hes jus tryin to get my attention and give him sme affection in this sick way, whiich drives me crazy.
Well there is also this other thing. He allways has an excuse. it can be the most stupid thing ever, but he will still say it, jus soo he has some excuse. lol...

well lets just forget all of what i jus said and let me tell u what i hate the most. I hate when he's late. You dont even know how mad it drives me. . hahahah... . Last time he came late again, even though he was late about a minute. Well imagine if the ambulance was late a minute? What if something happened to me in a minute? What if police didnt get there in that minute? What if....... He said he was late a minute, and i told him SOmetimes a minute can save a life.... now, isint that tru? Would you like for the ambulance to be there on time and save your life? or would you like for the ambulance to be late a minute and you die in thAt matter of that one fuckin minute. Life is krazy. Life is crucial..... cdn